In this series, I fragment the body and create large-scale oil paintings of viscera. Often my work is abstracted to the point where subject matter is unrecognizable but transcends into a state where the aura of a body is present. My work borders abstraction and representation -- I look to historic painters for inspiration and visceral handling of paint, such as Maria Lassnig or Sohan Qadri. This work centres on the complex relationship between the external body and inner self. I use images of surgeries to inform my subject matter; I use these images as a faint reference, but when I apply the paint it is an intuitive process.
What does it mean to be in my body? Does my soul connect to the physical vessel I reside in? Due to Covid-19, we are significantly more body-aware and conscious of our health and mortality. With more attention put towards the state of our bodies and how they can be altered, sometimes the inner self and physical self-do not connect as well as we would like.
I use my whole body as a meditation throughout the painting process. I use colours that are aesthetically pleasing to soften what is dysphoric and to invite the viewer into the work. This dysphoric quality in my work relates to trauma and feeling separated from the body. At the same time, these two-dimensional works are physically separate from the viewer. The paint application and scale create a material separation while the subject matter and physical handling of paint bring the viewer into the embodied experience. The painting stands in its own space, which furthers this idea of disconnection and reconnection. Formally, these paintings repurpose physical trauma.